Sunday, December 7, 2008
well here i am again not listening to jason mraz but james morrison and looking happily at my beautiful marine fishes upholding the moonlight which shines gleemingly on my fishes
its 1 in the morning right now and and i'm trying to think about what to write ,well my neighbour came over to talk about how he misses his gf and that he cant do nothing about it painfull yet helpfully i talked him out and slowly and sleekfully i changed the topic and made him change his course of pain and anger into following me to the gym ,YES the gym and i skipped work for that soi could help a friend and my stupid excuse i told my boss was that i was sick so anyways we went and pumped and pumped(that actually refers to carrying weights) till our hands could not carry no more and then we pumped again ,by the end of the day we were so exhausted that we dragged ourselves to compass point to grab a bite and take our minds off what we were caught up with .
people always tell me that i dont show my real self to people that i tend to show the rough and self sentered exterior of me ,i actually do agree to that,ok take this senario for instant i meet this person for the first time and i tell her everything aabout myself ok say she takes all my bull and she likes me 1st date-she's excited 2nd date-she finds me ok but by the time it reaches the third date ,she'd be bored as shit cause there's noting more i could give everything i had i told her
or maybe i'm afraid of being judged that i take critism to personally and i'm afraid that people will get to know who i really am and might not like the real me so i tend to keep to myself always and maybe i keep to my self alot because i'm the only child and i dun reallyhave no one to tellthem to .i do tell stuff to my mom cause i love her to bits but i cant really tell her everything cause it will really be disrespectful in a way .people have come and i've guess i started to talk alittle (thanks ms eng and faiz) these two people i believe i can trust but never complete .i dont really trust anyone cause no one i mean no one keeps their word in this world maybe some but not to many and because of these little quantity it actually makes me wonder what kind of a world we are living in . we living in a society where we dont receive a simple thank you for the little services that you did .everytime i go to work i keep telling my self "walid dont ever expect a simple thank you from any one" and then occasionaly out of the blues someone supprises me and tells me that they are greatful for my service and then i realise that there are people who do care ,is it really hard for you to tell your employers thank you for your help it was really good having you guys around good work' is that really hard .but who i am to judge i just keep my mouth shut and work my ass of for $5 an hour so that i can buy my laptop and go to austrialla.
well what can i really say work is work and life is not work .i dont want to be working 9 to 5 my whole life i cant stand it and for you people out there who actually are i give my respect to you .
there's so much craziness surrounding me so much going on it gets hard to breath all my faith has gone you bring it back to me you make it real for me i'm not sure about my piorities i've lost sight where i ment to be .and i am running to you baby cause you are the only one who saves me thats why i've been missing you lately cause you make it real for me .when my head is stong but my heart is weak i cant find the words to make me speak.i guess there's so much more that i gotta learn but if you're here with me i know which way to turn you always lead me somewhere ,somewhere i can run so i'm running to you baby
ok i guess thats it i'm going to sleep tomoro is hari raya to the non muslim people enjoy the holidays
walid
peace&love(xoxo)
Labels: somewhere beyond the sea someone's waiting for me my loves stand on golden sand and watches that go sailing
9:04 AM
Saturday, December 6, 2008
well here i am listening to one song which i seem to love alot these days "i'm yours" its not like i'm someone's already but it actually makes me wonder if i can actually be yours ? cause everytime i enter the whole cycle (relationship) i tend to screw it up ,its really inevitable but what the heck prolly i learn ...prolly not ,who knows well i just i gotta follow the stream where life takes me and eventually i do actually believe that everyone needs to end up with someone in the end .but it depends on whether you'll find one early or later ,i guess i've got a quote which i actually believe"t
hink not you can direct the course of love for love would to find you worthy will direct you up course"(thanks mom) i'm not really sure who it was from but it was definatly from a person who actually experienced .
life is not all about partying,who wear the nicest suit ,who drives an expensive car but its the littlest things which actually do matter ,details are actually makes the person unique and i do believe each and every individual is unique in their very own way and it really makes my heart tear up when i actually hear people complaining that they dont belong or they are not accepted but just look on the other maybe its not you but the crowd that you are actually mixing around with that you are not accepting ,
purpose,what is your purpose in life? there is no answer to that question really your purpose will be made with every mistake that you make in life(well that is what i belive).A good friend once told me"walid,make as many mistakes as you want when your still young because you will mature at a much faster and you will have to face the fact that you will be hurt in the process and when you do, do learn where that pain is coming from and try to overcome it when it comes back again" well i've not really known what my purpose , and i guess i will not really know it any time soon well
i keep a good luck charm underneath my arm cause she told me to little soft and round like a penny found , she said it keep an eye on you, she said incase i try to do something stupid
welll i guess reality finally got to me and i think i'm actually writing rubbish (it was like i was in a trans when i writing that)well i'm gonna stop saying sorry cause i know i'm going to repeat it well i guess thats me ;) anyways i've gotta get to sleep its 3 in the morning and i guess its bed time for me sweet dreams my beloved readers je taime
walid
one love(xoxo)
Labels: life is like a blank book so whata gotta do is create it but make sure you have illustration;)
10:40 AM
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
my deepest apologies that i have not been writing in my blog .well my real or so called "excuse" i could give my self is that i was working .yes you heard that i've got a jobbbbb and i'm daam siked mainly beacause i got a job which actually involves me using my "socialbility" into act and not into play(if you know what i mean).well i got a job a '
MADE WITH LOVE' its situated at plaza singapura
the shop actually deals with making of scrapbooks and other crafty things.so people out there if you ever want help to make for your boyfriend or girlfriend i'd be most willing to help in any way possible i guess i'm gonna make it one of these days for somebody special.ok here's the funny part i actually did not want this job because you know me ,i aint really the creative one here ,so back to the story ...i was job hunting with a good friend of mine 'ying ling'(i may annoy her sometimes but its fun haha) she is an art student and all so she was really interested in that job so she pulled me in the shop and grapped an application form for me and her and guess who got called in two days time
.......ME not her but ME i was really shocked cause i didnt actually want the job but hey i was jobless... so i had no other choice i had to get money from somewhere for my austrialla trip .so i took it ,the first few days days were really bad beause they were really loadz of stuff i was really what people in my country would say in french"flou" which means ''blur'' in singapore contexts .anyways i made more friends that i could ever meet my whole year.she shop is always packed with young ladies and ladies young at heart all are friendly and we do have the occasional sirs who come in who wants me to help them to make something for their partner or wife.there is this girl who is really over of the roof for me ,her name is karin (well at least thats how i guess its spelled out) she isthe kind of girli guess i really wanted to meet she has the cutest laugh anyone could ever hear her smile is so alluring like bees to honey well thats all i'm gonna say about her dont wanna go overboard ..and ohh yahh guess what ......she works there toooo hahaha ok well enough of work really lets talk about me
life have been really tiring for me but fun and enduring for me ,i placed my self for the standard chartered race up this sunday monday is hari raya and i'm planning to take up dance lessons prolly salsa or tango well i gotta find a partner maybe i'll ask karin if she wants but hey maye i'll not ask her i'll see what will happens but if any of you guys wanna join me i'd really be happy (ps;no boys please)no offence to the dudes i dont think it'll be comfortable for two guys to be dancing .well thats about it for dancing ,to be honest blogging to be is where i can actually write how i feel that instant i dont dont really care what goes into it as long as i can reald it the next day and tell myself tat"DUDE ok you were abit emotional yestereday and you are aware of that so make sure you make yourself happy today" call me crazy or insane but that is what i tell myself everytime i'm feeling down or alone(i'm a libra i tend to feel alone and always keep to my self) so if anyone of you who wanna know me more deeper and not in a superfical way just read my blog(if your lucky i do update and if not then i guess too bad then and if your really lucky i may show that side to you) i may look like i dont give a shit about stuff always but deep down when i sit alone in a comfort zone i do actually realize what a jerk i really am and since i already potray that image to people who i already know,i tend to keep it that way but i'm actually trying to change i'm really different infront of the people i do work with well all in all what i have to say before i end is that if you want to hate me be my guest but loving me thats another situation its hard really ,and i really mean no harm at all thank you all for listening to my pathaetic story of mine and i do apologize for my improper language used or vocab mistakes whichi have made along the way .take care people and
Merry Christmas may all your wishes be fulfilled (i hope mine will)
peace&love
walid
Labels: when i'm the shower i'd take about an hour i'd think about her
7:09 AM
javascript:void(0)